And So Pass Our Dreams
Chapter 2:
Recollections
"Emotions all shall wax and wane,
But never dims our ire;
Anger and rage will only grow,
Never to be lost, always to be given."
Billowing smoke, thick as the thunderclouds above, drifts about the room, sprouting with vigorous life from the embers of tobacco and dying upon the stale air. Unabashed, a rather beautiful woman dances—half naked—upon a cleared table near to a sill bedecked in all manner of drink, behind which stands an aging man, his brow bedecked in grey and mirth. The men seem split between the bar and the girl, inebriated and proud of it, but most are leaping between. Others, scattered around the edges of the tavern, sit quietly at small, round tables, whispering threats to those daring to sit with them. There is, though, one oddity, here, amidst this joyous provocation of inebriated dance and speeding music, a girl, sitting silently upon a windowsill, staring out into the vehement rainstorm flooding the world.
Her face is blank, her eyes lacking joy or sadness or anger, but she wears a frown as her azure eyes peer out. Music, shouts, whispers, all of it falls deaf upon her short ears, and her eyes consume all before her thought. It is her talent; it is her weakness. She knows all she wants and nothing she needs, here, as she gazes in silence with her ruby lips drawn out in some mimicry of a frown. Suddenly, though, her visage changes, her eyes spring to life in a blossom of vitality, but they are tinted in some far off sadness, a trouble foreseen or remembered. Her lips pull into a half smile, furthering the sorrow upon her visage.
She, she is all he sees. Like her, he knows nothing else. Her face, painted upon his eyes, is all he wants to see. His thoughts die out, his ears go silent, and his hands fall limp. Thoughtlessly, his legs move forward, mechanically pushing him forward, as he loses himself to obsession, until a voice, her voice, breaks his focus, and the world, like a cannonball, surges back into his mind in a wordless roar, blinding him, deafening him, wracking him in pain, and he stumbles, nearly falling over before catching himself. Like some shy boy, he attempts to string together a sentence, but fails horribly, and, to his horror, she laughs, her red lips parting, her eyes closed, her eyebrows raised, her bosom heaving… He rolls his tongue to find words, and she shuts her mouth, clasping a hand over it as she vibrates in a fit of humor.
Finally, though, he finds his words, and he, without either fear nor confidence, asks for her name, to which she replies.
If you promise to give yours… My name is Kayla Aramoun.
Her voice is so sweet, he thinks, and he stumbles before giving his own.
Dirk—Dirk Zephyrs. A—a pleasure to meet you.
She returns his pleasure, and with bolstered bravado he strikes conversation with her, his voice, though trembling from the frigid storm, blissful. Smiling back at the man, Kayla cannot but wonder why he feels such joy, beholding his wretched, soaked garb. At first a forced smile, as this pauper in such exuberant mind continues, she forgets all sorrow, her spirit lifted by the sheer force of the man's naivety.
Heavy, sorrowful, her eyes give empathy past her façade of smiling joy, and he continues with joy and jest, speaking simply because he can. He tells little of himself, rather speaking of the world, ignoring his numb skin and inundated rags, for he has no sorrow in his bone nor room for it. Slowly, her eyes burn away the cold of memories, letting her mind to the present, and now with the warmth of hope she gazes upon him.
At length, their talks turn to themselves, and though a more dismal tale, Dirk gives his story without emotion. An orphan and now an exile, his life is that of loss, his mother and now his home; the tragedy of his words strike deep into her thoughts. A priestess, a healer of the goddess Mara, she has seen all the horrors wrought by man and beast, seen the eyes of death, and seen the pain of birth.
Hours pass, and what once was an early and lively eve is now sunk into silence and darkness, and thus with a yawn, the priestess resigns up to her chamber, leaving Dirk to his thought. Where men would be full of ire and rage at their fate, he seems detached, void of care, and like a disease, it festers. His mind wanders to that land of shattered glass, memories fogged and forgotten. His mother's face, gleaming and pure, blurred to a dream, looms before his closed eyes, speaking with a voice, so unmistakably hers, yet he knows it is not. Louder, closer, the voice grows as the silence disappears, until even the blackness of the empty tavern is replaced.
Images flood his head in a torrent, filling his mind with all the joys of his exiled life, his mother, his home, his friends; his childhood and innocence scour his eyes, and then, like lightning, it all burns, the people dying and dead in the streets, screaming and wailing with unimaginable pitch, dying in this tempest of blood and fire to the steel of unnatural phantasms, twisted monstrosities from something far worse than nightmares. His mother stands strong, the only being to resist this terror, but she, at last, falls, but with her vanish the draconic abominations, leaving only blood, death, and destruction in their unholy wake. A single wail, so human, so frail, pierces the now silence of carnage, and from a charred pile of rubble crawls a sobbing child, calling for his mother, only to find her body pierced; her life ebbing away like the ocean's tide. Fire consumes his eyes, wiping away the gruesome memories into a perpetual darkness, his only company the unending dripping, the only human voices the muted, hoarse moans echoing from beyond the darkness. It is true loneliness, not even rats to fight for his single, sparse meal. Before him, on a stone slab, lies a decrepit man, his youth and beauty wiped away by the months in this hopeless abyss. He does not speak, he does not move, but with unending fervor his lips move in silent words, words of vengeance, words of death, promises of justice. Cold, deathly fires burn in this man's ebon eyes, festering wounds of the purest hatred at a world that wronged him. No more does he cry for his mother, no more does he long for his home, but so much he wishes to avenge it all. At last, a single, unintelligible word springs from his tongue in a hushed whisper, barely louder than a breath, and with a jerk, the darkness, the emaciated prisoner; it all disappears. Once more, he is sitting upon the cushioned windowsill of the empty tavern.
Burning, fiery, the undying sun rises over the frigid wood, glaring down upon the muddy earth and ramshackle village. Like a thin curtain, a thick fog strangles the morning, raping the colored leaves of the fall, making the world, the earth, seem ethereal, fake. Raucous, shrill, the screaming of birds rings across the village, endless and echoing on and on, and with a trembling sigh, Dirk shuts his blazing, delirious eyes and lowers his head, his nasty, tangled ebon mane covering his visage like a cerement. He opens his eyes and stares at his pallid flesh, numbed by the cold, damp rags upon his back, and then, shuddering, he stands, his limbs woken by the sheer force of his will. Freedom has helped to repair his decrepit mask, but in his eyes are rekindled the sanguine fires of hatred, of the prisoner's vengeance, the hatred that had festered, forgotten and cast away with his past. Under his breath, he utters a vow.
The night falls away like leaves in a fall gale, and the morning sun brings life and noise to the village. Chirping, singing, the birds call the world to wake as the sun pours down through the thin veil of mist, caressing open bleary eyes to peer upon the glittering trees and shimmering earth. Shivering, she wakes, autumn's breath sharp upon her bared skin, like the caress of a cold hand. As though trying to regain the fading pleasantries of her slumber, her eyes are distant, full of blissful innocence. Her eyes gaze upon the room, wondering as they settle into reality, wondering as they always have, and in silent thought, she dresses, donning again the same white habit.
She smiles when she sees him, a small smile of friendly joy, little more than a thankful nod for a good conversation. He returns her smile with a lopsided grin, his black eyes warm, full of a zealous wish. Bidding him a good morn, she walks past, her hips swaying like a flower in a breeze, slowly rocking back and forth with every step she takes, her robe rippling like the water, flowing with her stance. He wobbles as he stands from his seat upon the window, an insomniac weight pulling him from balance, and he stumbles before righting himself. Intoxicated by her image, his eyes follow her as she orders her morning meal, her voice like a ripple of a dream resonating through his mind. Her silken brown hair shimmers in the morning light as it cascades down to her shoulders, swaying ever so slightly with her movements. Confusion washes over him, his eyes filled with wonder at the sight, enraptured by her perfection, for he has never felt this way before. Blood racing, heart pounding, he walks to her as she takes her seat. She greets him with a friendly smile, which he returns threefold, lost in this joyous emotion. But then she frowns, and tells him that she is leaving upon the hour, to finish her journey, her pilgrimage. Struck by the news, he gives her a curious glance, and then he tells her the question that has run through his blood for the last hour.
You know that I am here, cast from my home, and that I have little more than a mark to my person in my exile. I have nowhere to go, no family nor friends, and save you, I know no one. Please, miss, allow me to travel with you.
Kayla hesitates before giving him her answer, mixed ideas playing across her face, duty and want, pride and vanity, fear and excitement. She is a priestess of the healing Goddess, sworn by oath to save the downtrodden and sickly, yet she is a noble, her family pompous and without pity for the paupers, and she is a woman, and he a man. Her voice trembles with indecision when she finally speaks, and with her answer dies the repetition of her life.